once again just hit me now… I woke up with a terrible headache, wishing and wanting to just stay home and sleep around till noon but I just can’t. Kids are up and Gabby have exams for today, Need to go to the office and my packed lunch isn’t interesting to eat. I know things will be the same again at the office.. same old routine, tasks… computer… customers…suppliers… some things I no longer enjoy doing… I know I shouldn’t be feeling this way, must be thankful and grateful and I honestly do BUT I just can’t help it but feel this way… I wanted to see things in positive way but the wail of negativity is taking its toll on me today…. I feel low, so damn low…. But I am still hoping, I will be ok… everything will turn out fine… I hope it’s just one of those blues that will soon go away…