I am done with the laundry and the kids are now taking their afternoon nap soundly. So I have now time to go online and do some tweaking on some photos that I need to upload. do blog hop and grab some opps if there’s any. hee. Yesterday was a bad day for me at the office! will not go into details anymore as I am so sick and tired of my situation there already. haah. Patience is what I need… and I am off with the boredom and negative feelings I have for quite sometime now.
Category Archives: Feelings
Relaxed
………Finally!
After a couple of days cramming reviews for Gabby’s 2nd quarter exams, I am now stress free! hee. With so many things on my hand and little time to accomplish things, I am now relaxed since the little girl will take a 10 days vacation from school. haah. This means waking time will be 6 a.m and I can have more “me” time in the morning! I’m so glad that Gabby is very cooperative as she answer all the reviewers that I made for her. I just hope that she’ll make it up this time! Next week is Hubby’s birthday, I’m still thinking of what gift to give him this time since I don’t have enough budget yet for the bracelet that he likes. besides, we’ll be having events and activities to attend to this Halloween and we will be very busy for sure!
Why Oh Why?!
……………Are some people so insensitive?
I don’t blame other people if I am having a hard time doing things on my own and if I think situation is getting unfair, I speak up my mind and let the person knew how I feel. I won’t leave someone puzzled as to why am I acting a certain attitude. We’re not on a guessing game show here and it’s like someone’s here playing a charade… well, what can I do? I just hate the feeling of indifference and I’m a transparent person. I don’t hide feelings most especially if it’s my pride at stake… haay, I hate doing negative bloggeries here.. but I need to release my tensions for me to move on… I am living to a standard of not minding other people’s business. I know, “To each his own” but it’s just so sad that I get affected by others moods’ swings…
Thank You!
I’ve spent my weekend on the hospital with my mother. The reason why she was confined is due to high blood and diabetes. I forgot how high was her blood pressure, but her sugar level raised up to 497.6. Oh my! good thing she did not faint and the doctor said that she was almost near to get a mild stroke. She’s in a stable condition now. Our kuya, the panganay was the one who financed all her hospital bills and expenses. My niece and nanay’s panganay na apo , is the one who took care of her and her bantay all night and day! grabe, hindi ko kinaya ang puyat at pagod last friday. but we will do everything for a mom. My mother was kinda emotional, especially she knew all along that the longer you stay at the hospital, the higher your bill is going up. All we could do is divert her attention to avoid complications on her health. Sa panahon ngayon, talagang bawal ang magkasakit! I hate seeing heart breaking scenes whenever I go to a hospital, which I did saw since my mom was there. Health is really wealth! that’s all I can say… BTW, I would like to thank everyone who left a message of concern and prayers for me and my mother. It really means a lot. Thanks 🙂
Dealing with my problems
And so I thought that I am having a great week ahead of me.well, I was wrong! even the item that I’ve been longing for to have is giving me a lot of headache and so I give up on that already. Maybe it wasn’t really for me. I was bombarded with lots of problems that I thought I am going to lose my senses. Crying is the only way for me to release the heavy loads inside me. Good thing I have my children who keeps my senses and is a great source of my strength and inspiration aside from frequent conversations with the dear lord. Oh yes, what a marvelous way of unloading the burden by just having a deep prayer.
- I pray for god’s enlightenment towards Ian’s decisions. Please do guide him always and let him see things in a lighter and brighter point of view, take away the hatred he has in his heart. may he be able to forgive others and learn to accept the reality and be more considerate to other’s feelings and condition.
- I pray for my children’s health and for them to be always safe and away from harm. and I thank God that they are growing up well.
- I pray for my mother’s condition now, my sister called me up last night she was chilling and vomiting before she was rushed to the hospital. Will have to check on her later after office, since I need to wait for my salary today to be released. Oh poor me.. 🙁
- I pray for God’s strength for me to hang on and be able to face life’s challenges.
On a lighter note, this has article has helped me a lot.
DEALING WITH PROBLEMS
When cornered by problems, lost in the dark abyss where nothing seems to help, there is still a way out. For problems may not be in our hands, but handling them skillfully is. Here are some tips for effective problem solving from a Tibetan master
Saints, philosophers, achievers all agree that problems enrich life as much as victories and happiness. What is important is to not let them intimidate you, and develop the skill to use them to empower the self. There are many ways to do this, ways that help you overcome your worst fears and problems. Some are suggested by Tulku Thondup, an adept of the Nyingma branch of Tibetan Buddhism, in his book The Healing Power of Mind.
AVOID
An important thing about problems is to try and avoid them if they seem mild or temporary.
Says Tulku: ‘‘If we don‘t mind these problems, they will go away.‘‘ When you are not ready to face problems, it is best to avoid them. Only when you know you have the mental strength should you try to resolve the problem or release it through meditation.
On the other hand, if you are one of those whose minds are strong and who have a great deal of pride, it would be helpful to feel deeply the pain brought by the problem. This will help get rid of some of the pride by facilitating a connection with the very core of life, thereby focusing attention in the right direction.
RECOGNIZE AND ACCEPT
Recognizing and accepting one‘s problems in the right spirit is imperative to begin the process of healing. While some problems are evidently unimportant, others need to be faced in their totality. It often becomes a habit with us to push away problems that seem insurmountable, forgetting that they will reappear, maybe in a more destructive form. Identifying a problem clearly is the first step to dealing with it. If committed to solving it, each problem will appear easier to deal with and it is possible that those that we thought permanent and irresolvable will vanish.
FIND THE SOURCE
Now that you have the right attitude, it is time to begin the process of dealing with your problem. Begin with trying to find the source. To understand the problem, sit in a comfortable, quiet place that affords few distractions. Relax your body and quieten your mind. Breathe deeply, and imagine all your worries being released with the out-breath. Feel peaceful, clear and spacious. Allow yourself to be in that peace for a while. Then slowly, look at the problem you are facing. See it and also feel it. Acknowledge its presence.
Tulku Thondup also suggests retracing one‘s steps and going back in memory. Think of how the problem may have begun. Go back to the earliest possible time, place and source of the pain. See the possible shape, color, temperature and location of that place. As we begin contemplating the causes and feeling them, our healing has begun.
FEEL THE PROBLEM
See your problems objectively without pre-labeling them as negative. If you feel sad or wronged, even small issues could seem big. While healing, no emotion needs to be denied. Allow your feelings to surface so that they can be released. If there is emotional pain, it indicates the impact this shake-up is having on you. So it is good to cry as it releases mental stress, physical pressure and chemical toxins that build up when we hold back pain. Express naturally and frankly without grasping, hiding or defending the pain. Allowing grief its natural space to heal will finally lead to it running its course, says Tulku.
CHANGE PERCEPTIONS
Constantly dwelling upon a situation will make you suffer. Seeing a problem as negative, constantly thinking and talking about its severity makes even small hurdles seem insurmountable. Despite everything, remember to be gentle with yourself.
All this is about perceptions then. Avoid disharmonious words. When you generate strong positive energy, it can help cease, or at least ease suffering. Make friends with problems. When difficult emotions come, you can ask them what they want. You may need to relax and stop grasping, to take better care of yourself and recognize your true needs, or to change your behavior.
CLEAR MENTAL GARBAGE
A major goal of spiritual practice is to clear our minds of the intellectual and emotional garbage we have collected since childhood, so that we can provide space for true relaxation and enjoyment. Tulku warns that while positive thoughts become nourishment for the mind, negative views and passions have toxic effects. It is important to make a determined effort not to let our mind dwell on problems as negative. Occupy your mind with something else-reading, gardening, or painting. They are often the anchors that see people through their problems.
When feeling overwhelmed by sadness or loneliness, you can merge in the openness of the sadness. Allow your breathing to become relaxed. Instead of trying to push the sadness away, or labeling it as `bad‘, stay where you are mentally, open but calm. Feel your sadness without grasping or judging, just as it is. Relax and merge with the feeling, lose yourself in it, space into space.
FIGHT PHOBIAS
In the case of phobias, the problem is fear of fear, the tightening grip of the mind that magnifies and multiplies an original fear until the mouth dries up, the throat closes, and the body shakes. Under such circumstances, meditations and positive visualizations can help. Welcome the fear. Relax your body and breathing, and allow the fear to rise up. Experience it; try to be open to it. If the body shakes, allow it, let go of the wish to push this away, but at the same time maintain relaxed breathing.
(Compiled by Nishtha Shukla from The Healing Power of Mind by Tulku Thondup, Published by Penguin Arkana)
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Thank God It’s Friday!
Haay, it’s not good week for me! parang pagod na pagod ako since Monday. Hope I’ll be able to go back into my blogging mode. tsk… My mind’s cluttered, and pakiramdam ko magkaksakit ako! so bare my with personal post this week…
I’ll try to do my rounds of blog hop and tags next time.. 🙂
Have a great weekend everyone!
Goodbye Quiapo…
Photo above has been my favorite part of the house in Quiapo. I’ve lived and basically grew up there, spent 17 years in this house with full of happy and sad memories; just like being in love and brokenhearted, one has to leave and move on… I remember how it breaks my heart and a heavy feeling when I left the place and transferred to Mandaluyong.
Now, time has come that my parents will be totally moving out there. No matter how “bulok” it is, still it has created an impact on who I am right now, the memories of our stay there will be forever remembered and cherished. I am a totally “batang Quiapo” but not a madurukot huh?! hehehe.
I graduated from Quiapo Parochial School- elementary and high school. It was run by the Sisters of St. Paul then, I remember how our principal would always regard us as the Paulinians. Oh diba?! and even sings the Paulinian hymn.. “Hark sons and daughters of St. Paul” But Quiapo Pachial School had to change its name into Black Nazarene when something controversial happened ( i guess) after I graduated there and is now under the administration of the Quiapo Church and no longer handled by the sisters of St. Paul.
Sabi nga nila, Quiapo daw is the counterpart of Tondo. I know, many stories has been said about Quiapo, the famous movie of late Fernando Poe Jr. and Maricel Soriano. If you want low priced cameras, just look for Hidalgo street near the Quiapo Church and beside the church are those vendors selling herbal medicines.. Oh well, I remember before I was pregnant with gabby as SH and I were passing by the quiapo church, one vendor approached me and said ” Ma’m CYTOTEC ka? ” I was like, “Hellllo??? Mukha ba akong magpapalaglag sa laki ng tiyan ko? I was eight mos. pregnant then. Ian couldn’t help but laugh out. And the ever famous line whenever you pass by the Muslim area in Barbosa street, “Dibidi, dibidi, dibidi” .
And this I will truly miss every year…
” Fiesta alay sa Mahal na Poon ng Nazareno”
But we will still be present there every year in devotion to the black Nazarene… No matter what happens. Quiapo will always be forever in my heart.
Image of Black Nazarene from Google.
Grrrr….
hmmpp… kenes…
Where’s my PR?!
Well, it’s been almost 7 mos. since I’ve started this blog of mine… Everybody has their own interpretation on how to gain and increase one’s PR. I also have done my thing on this, but my research had only led me to confusion. ahahaha! I tried doing all those step-by-step procedures that they’ve said, but the outcome is still the same My blog has been PR0 from the very start.
The only importance I know and believe about this so called thing is that you’ve got to have a high PR if you’ll venture into this so called “paid blogging” and earn extra $$$.
The only importance I know and believe about this so called thing is that you’ve got to have a high PR if you’ll venture into this so called “paid blogging” and earn extra $$$.
As for me, I still do earn even if I have PR0. though I know it doesn’t match the earnings of those who have a higher PR 🙂 I am so thankful that there’s still quite a number of people who frequently visits and take a peek into my blogs. I’ve learn a lot since I’ve started to blog, friendships blossoms over the net. This I think are far more important than this PR thingy, right?! Well, I will continue to blog even it remains PR0. Blogging is already a part of me, a part of my daily activity and I intend to keep it for as long as I heart Blogging!
So excited!
We’ve been waiting for quite a month to receive the package from Australia that contains goodies from Ate Irma. Ian and kids couldn’t wait anymore to get hold of those… they kept on asking me to follow it up on Forex. We’re expecting 2 huge balikbayan boxes full of toys for the kids, chocolates and lollies, shoes, shirts and many others that makes them so excited…