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Dreamed Of My Father

My mind was pre-occupied with so many thoughts and ideas about things that I really wanted to do  the past few weeks and really needs an ample time for some decision making. Things aren’t working out well again for our family’s finances.

The kids’ educational expenses need to be cleared out very soon as they approach their 3rd Trimester examinations the first week of March, so I am really hoping against hope and is  really praying hard that we may be able to surpass this not so new financial struggle that we are currently facing. I believe in God’s divine providence. He did  prove it to me in so many ways already.

Also, I am praying hard for another job opportunity that I am trying to take my chances in. I am really crossing my fingers for a positive result this week. Moving on, that’s what I really need to do with my current work. I’ve been here for about seven years and I am grateful for all the help and things that I have learned from this job. But I think it’s time for me to find another one. A new working environment and a salary that would at least suffice for our daily expenses.

Last night,  I dreamed of my father. He brought me “Laing”, an indigenous food in Bicol that my parents sell at the market and have been the source of income for the family. He said ” Oh, eto na yung Laing mo” in a filled big kaldero that we used for our paninda. I said ” ang “bilis mo ah” but I couldn’t remember anymore his response. All I could remember is seeing his face, the one during his good younger years. Then I was looking at him as he walked away, trying to remember his face. I don’t know what it means, maybe because  miss him. 🙁

I felt good when I woke up. I miss my Tatay, the good old days that we had as a father and daughter, how he used to be my art projects maker during my Elementary and High school days. Also, he’s the one whom I bug whenever I want to have a new haircut! haha! He does the “siete” cut on me when I was in grade five. LOL! he would trim my hair whenever I feel like it.

” We miss you Tatay! I know that you are still praying a looking down on us for guidance” I hope that you are as happy as I saw you in my dreams!

Goodbye Tatay…

To live in the hearts of those we love is never to die- Thomas Campbell

Goodbye Tatay

Last April 9 at around 9 p.m. I received a text from my niece, “Ate Dez, di na gumagalaw si Tatay and ‘di na humihinga” I am not yet done on my reply when this time, I saw her name on my phone calling. She confirmed that my father is already dead. Ian and I went to my parent’s place and we were there in less than an hour. We saw him lying in the couch and he just seems like sleeping. Only, no pulse and no longer breathing.

The funeral service arrived later, he was transferred from the couch into the stretcher and covered him in a life size zip bag.  It was only then that it finally dawned on me that he is already lifeless, dead…

We were blessed to have him around with us until his eighties. He should’ve been 81 by next month. The outpour of sympathy, condolences and support from family, relatives, friends, neighbors, acquaintances overwhelms us all and helps us a lot to cope up with the loss of our father. He is indeed loved by many.

During his wake, people would recall the moments how my Tatay touched their lives in different ways, from simple gestures to small talks, etc. The two nights of his wake was filled with uplifting prayers and songs from two singing groups of our younger brother’s circle of friends. Those angelic voices surely gave out Tatay a smile from afar.

On his third day and last day, there was a funeral mass held for him at Holy Trintity church before he was cremated at a chapel in North cemetery.

As the priest say in his homily, “ Sa pagpanaw, una-una lang. Pwede ring huli-huli ka, or by batch ang paglisan.”

Nauna na si Tatay, nagbibiruan pa kami, “magkikita rin naman ulet sa kabilang buhay, pero wag muna agad-agad!” 😀

 

Goodbye Tatay, ‘Till we all meet again, we’ll surely miss you!