…OR should I say immobilized?! That’s how I feel for four days now. The kitchen is closed. and I just really couldn’t find the energy to move and think straight. Things gotten worst and here I am doing nothing.

Yes, nothing! I felt so numb that I even couldn’t cry anymore. Thoughts just keeps on rambling in mind. For now, I am just going with the flow of emotions. Not healthy I know because all I feel are fears, doubts and worry. All these three negative emotions are getting into me. I could feel that my heart weakens.

But deep down inside, I still have this feeling of HOPE. I just couldn’t figure how to get out of this situation now.

I just went to the church to pray as I dropped off my son to school, but you know, I wasn’t able to find the right words to say. I just sat there for a few minutes and prayed for peace of mind as I left.

Now, here I am, letting this thing out in the open. Maybe not in full details ( I know you’re all wondering what’s the fuss’ all about, but you somehow understands what I’m going through now ) but I felt ok.

“This too shall pass” . Things will turn out ok. *crossing fingers

So help me God…